i am slacking from classes now and am in the lirbrary. she just asked me to log in and out of the comp cos some technician screwed some thing up.
so anyway. i had a talk with Bongard after PE today. he was talking to be about reconsidering my role as a prefect and whether i have to continue being one. i do want continue being one. but i guess it's just for the tie and badge. i really have changed after being one. more mature. more self control. really has helped me. but on another side of it, it's really bad. got some feed back from some teachers. not to me, but Bongy. damn sad la. most of the feed back was good. they ALL said that i am good as a student. but not so much as a prefect. "a prefect should stand out and lead the crowd. not be IN the crowd". yeah. i guess. but i can't really sacrifice that. i'm too stuck with my friends and my so-called "gang". it is require for me to get away from all that if i want to stay as a prefect. maybe not so much required la. but maybe recommended? i dunno la. i'll think about it.
back to my life...
it's been boring. very boring. i really miss the times when, right after school, i rush to turn on my phone, or sometimes is already on, and see "1 message recieved". and it's from her. i really miss her. she's been ignoring me. i don't know why. she said she's been mugging for some stuff. i don't know la. she's cuaght up. all i can saw is i am never letting go.
back to my life in school...
training was quite shitty. we actually were supposed to pon cause of some prize presentation in school. i HAD no prize. but at least i had top 7! that's what i am frustrated about la. cos when Wen Han annouced my name while presenting the team, he announced,"Timothy Lui. 100m 7th, 200m 4th and 400m 7th." so when i went around school everyone was like,"seventh ah? not bad sia." wtf. i got 4th for one! hello?! haha. so shitty. i am refraining from vulgarities. haha.
a while ago, when i went to singaporeathletics.org.sg, the admin blocked me. what the hell. i wanted to go to the result page to check my results la. then it was "singaporeathletics.org.sg category:pornography."
haha. so stupid. singapore athletics showing what? naked shoes and feet with noe shoes? that sucks la.
well. i am damn hungry and i want to go to the canteen to eat some food. i can't cos if i am caught, i'll be dead. argh.
i hope someone comes to my house later. so bloddy bored at home. nothing to do. i am so bored right now i am reading people's testimonials on friendster and seeing their pictures. i hafta go now.
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Friday, April 22, 2005
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
anyway, i am quite sad la. cause it's like.. i can't really talk to her now. i think she can feel it. i don't know. i don't want this to end la. we haven't gone out once yet. but that's beside the point la. i really really don't want to let this go. i know we can make it la. just have to hold on.
i always have this feeling. don't know why. it's like, i want to call her and talk to her. just to hear her voice. but when i pick up the phone, i just can't la. i really hate that. don't know why it's like that. eventually, i don't. it;s as if i am scared to talk to her. what the fuck is this. i don't know la. i really want this to work out la. don't know if she's so keen about that. i mean. when i sms her she takes long to reply or never reply at all. and when she does, she gives me short replies and not-so-happy ones. maybe she's irritated or something. i don't know. she's not telling. she always says she's busy and all. i know it's been 2 days and i am getting a little paranoid. but she's giving me signs to back off. maybe she isn't. i really don't know.
i think that's enough about that. to school life...
there's only one prefect in my class at this point in time. that's me. don't really know what happened la. but i heard from Nick that before school started, Peter was playing basketball in class. dribbling and all.and the other three prefects in the classroom at that time did not make any attempts to stop him. i was having training so i had nothing to do with it.
then a teacher Hock came in. so they got suspended and a fucking big scolding. their ties were taken by Bongard.
in the process, bloody Gerard's phone got confiscated. by Bongard again. cause Jia Long was asked by him what he was doing in the class when he didn't stop Peter. and Jia Long said he was booking Gerard for his phone which was turned on. then now he's gonna write a complaint letter regarding both incidents, stating that he should get his phone back as many people also use their phone during school hours and mentioned my name. wtf. Gerard. i can't stand him. if i was given the chance, i seriously would kill him. school just sucked today la. i was waiting for her sms after school but it never came. argh feel so dead. i have nothing to look forward to la.
on a happier tone...
i got 4th for 200! haha. quite an unexpected result. cause i qualified second last. my maxcat helped me! haha. i cut off 0.42 seconds and 3 posititons. haha. but after my run, my right side of my right foot was buring. it was close to the little toe area. a little too specific? i think it's the shoe. not the way i run that caused it. cause Yu Jin who has the same shoe also had that feeling. he came in third in his division(U-17). i don't think i could've gotten third cause it was quite far away.
but the day before was disappointing. it was pouring wet and my race just started. so in the rain, which was fucking heavy, we ran la. i came in seventh. sian! i qualified 6th. and my superfly didn't do me any good. felt faster, but wasn't. i was 0.6 seconds slower than the prelims. disappointing. but one thing i did like was my starts. i was first off the blocks. about 1 metre ahead of everyone. coach actually thought i was gonna grab the gold just looking at my starts. but like 2 seconds later, EVERYONE caught up. i finished 7th. so sad!
well. i think i have to go study.
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Wednesday, April 20, 2005
Friday, April 15, 2005
yesterday i when i had tuition, i couldn't concentrate properly. cos i was going to get my ipod from my friend and my spikes from another. haha. i had to pay $150 and $300 repectively. so i went to school excited and all, awating my new possesions. this morning, Joash really did give me my beloved spikes. i bought them online. kinda ex but i think they're worth it la. one's called "superfly p 2" and the other's called "maxcat". both sprint spikes. the superfly is mainly for my 100m. the other's for my other events like from 2 to 4. they're really good. i only tried the superfly today. it's for my 100 tomorrow. i really am scared. haha. i qualified 3rd last! i should think about it as qualitfied sixth. haha. it looks... better.
so the day went on with happy me. i rushed back to class after morning training to go collect my ipod. guess what? Raymond didn't bring it. nevermind. i can collect it after school, at 3. after my training. so after training, i called him. didn't pick. it must have been at least 10 calls. still didn't pick up. so i gave up and went home.
my track friends came over. John, Yu Jin, Zhi Yuan and Ruzaini.
back to the ipod thingy.
okay. so Raymond messaged me at like, 5. two hours late. "are you in school?" wtf. am i in school? i left two hours ago!
so i was fucking pissed la. i want to use it for my competition. tomorrow. fucking retarded la. never keeps his promises. so nick and i have doubts about him. he gave him a hundred for his micro. so we feel cheated.
but now, he's online. i hated him 15 minutes ago. now he's okay. cos he is gonna give it to me tomorrow. he promised. if he doesn't keep it, i'll go so fast and so hard up his ass, he won't know what an ipod is. i'm still quite pissed la.
okay. back to my normal life. i am so glad i have my spikes! they're frigging comfortable. i have a little more confidence for tomorrow. aiming for a bronze. i have to do at least 12.00. flat! that'll probably give me the silver. dunno la. everything has to go right tomorrow. not left. right. right... haha. it really has to. get sufficient warm up. i really am nervous. haha. she told me what to do when i am nervous and all. really works. haha. love her!
i am damn frustrated la. i did type a blog entry, really long one, explains more about life after my last one. but fuck. it just had to screw up and get terminated. so fucked. that's why i didn't blog for long. so pissed. but so far, things have been going fairly well for me.
we've moved forward pretty well. not going so fast as before. that really screwed it up and split us up. i'm quite proud of us. i just want the whole world to know la. but can't la. haha. mainly because of the parents thingy. haha. but she thinks i'm a nerd. in other terms, GUAI KIA! omg. that depiction of me is totally off la. being in the class committee last year doesn't meant you're guai. being a prefect doesn't mean you're guai. haha. she said it's "first impression that counts". haha. right...
anyway. i'm cooled now. i need my ipod. if he doesn't bring it i will really be pissed. tomorrow's my birthday!
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Friday, April 15, 2005
Thursday, April 07, 2005
sorry for the long period of time.
when site meter gives me reports of the number of people visiting this website, i just delete it la. haha. cos i know no one comes now. haha. cos i don't blog anymore.
well. now i am blogging.
it's been very nice because of something which happened like, two weeks ago. since then it's been always on my mind. i just can't stop thinking about it la.
well. i like this layout but i dont think i am gonna keep it. cause it was supposed to be what i was feeling when i was actually choosing the skin. yeah. i felt.. alone. haha. yeah. it was frigging boring la. Was.
thank you!
okay. back to my life. last week was the Singapore Amateurs'. i did fucking badly. so disappointed. but i'm glad you came. thanks. haha. really meant something to me. okay. yeah. i did qualify for both 100m and 200m,qualifying 6th and second last qualifier(7th) repectively, and got 7th in 400m. but the actual results i did were really disappointing. okay. maybe i had excuses, why i ran so badly for these races. maybe i had the rain to blame for the 100m. and the 100m to blame for the 400m. and not warming up properly for 200m. but it still is disappointing. that's why i told my self that i'd train fucking hard from now onwards. i'm trying la. just trying my best.
life in school is boring. and i ain't studying much because i can't get my mind of it la. it's too... distracting. in a good way. hold on. distracting can't be good can it? but ahh. i don't care la.
oh ya.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIE!~!
it's my sister's birthday. i mean. it was. like, 3 days ago. the forth of april. i know lotsa people who are born in april. like. the first, Qi Yang. erm. 4, my sister. 12, my aunty. 16, me. 19, nicholas. haha. i think there's more. lazy to name out la. sorry if i missed your name out okay? i didn't mean it. i swear.
okay... back to school. now i hate P.E. i used to like it a lot. we have to like, run hell lot la. moreover, i have like, morning training everyday, and afternoon trainings, every other day, like Monday, Wednesday and Friday. kinda sian la. but that's the only way of having a chance to beat Sports School. chance. not beat. chance. sian la. they were already better than me before they even were in that blasted school. haha. sorry. no offence. but really hate them la. guess i'm just green. i have to be Mr. Brightside. haha. i love that song. "Jealousy.. turning saints..." it rocks.
so yeah. that's what life's been for the past two weeks. exactly two weeks ago.
well. i gotta hit the books again.
byebye.
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Thursday, April 07, 2005